On 11 September 1989, he underwent a psychiatric examination at the Commission of the Chief Psychiatrist of the Russian Federation to review his condition.

My soul is weary of my life. I will give free course to my complaint. I will speak in the bitterness of my soul.

My soul is weary of my life I will leave my complaint upon myself I will speak in the bitterness of my soul.

I don't really think of myself as a designer, I don't really think of myself necessarily as a fashion designer.

I will present myself at the meeting.

Surely I have stilled and quieted my soul, like a weaned child with his mother, like a weaned child is my soul within me.

So she uncovered her prostitution, and uncovered her nakedness then my soul was alienated from her, like as my soul was alienated from her sister.

Surely I have behaved and quieted myself, as a child that is weaned of his mother my soul is even as a weaned child.

So she discovered her whoredoms, and discovered her nakedness then my mind was alienated from her, like as my mind was alienated from her sister.

Finally, I said, Why am I clapping?

Maybe I'll feel good myself.

Well, when I saw this in the front page of the Times, I thought, Great. Finally something I can relate to.

Why do I even care?

Let me correct myself.

I asked myself.

Then I called her myself. Listen, Olya the voice on the other line started telling me.

I will set my tent among you and my soul won't abhor you.

And I will set my tabernacle among you and my soul shall not abhor you.

The cab stopped, and I pulled my body from it feeling each ounce of weight as I walked to the elevator.

At that time I found myself in a strange situation.

In the day that I called, you answered me. You encouraged me with strength in my soul.

In the day when I cried thou answeredst me, and strengthenedst me with strength in my soul.

I mean, I've been saying I've been prepping.

I tried to kill myself twice.

I just want to hug them all.

For my own sake, for my own sake, will I do it for how should my name be profaned? I will not give my glory to another.

For mine own sake, even for mine own sake, will I do it for how should my name be polluted? and I will not give my glory unto another.

I'm controlling myself not to lose my head.

I was absolutely, physically and emotionally broken.

Why should I take my flesh in my teeth, and put my life in my hand?

My soul is consumed with longing for your ordinances at all times.

My soul is continually in my hand, yet I won't forget your law.

My eye affects my soul, because of all the daughters of my city.

Wherefore do I take my flesh in my teeth, and put my life in mine hand?

My soul breaketh for the longing that it hath unto thy judgments at all times.

My soul is continually in my hand yet do I not forget thy law.

Mine eye affecteth mine heart because of all the daughters of my city.

And so on. If I think of myself as a musician ...

So I said, I'm going to dedicate myself.

I exhausted myself by walking a long distance.

I ask myself what he did.

Allow me to properly introduce myself first.

My soul stays close to you. Your right hand holds me up.

My soul has observed your testimonies. I love them exceedingly.

Let my soul live, that I may praise you. Let your ordinances help me.