I started thinking about my father and my grandfather and my great grandfather, and I realized that I had all of these Teds going through my blood stream that I had to consider this my element.

I acknowledged my sin to you. I didn't hide my iniquity. I said, I will confess my transgressions to Yahweh, and you forgave the iniquity of my sin. Selah.

I can't feel my lips my face is frozen I can't feel my hands I can't feel my feet.

I hit my head on my desk. I broke my cheekbone, I got five stitches on my right eye.

I am weary with my groaning. Every night I flood my bed. I drench my couch with my tears.

What do I want for my future? I want to return to my home, I want peace and harmony where I can raise my family.

I also will answer my part, and I also will show my opinion.

Shall I then take my bread, and my water, and my flesh that I have killed for my shearers, and give it unto men, whom I know not whence they be?

When I was 14, I escaped from Tibet and became even further removed from my mother and father, my relatives, my friends and my homeland.

And he said, This will I do I will pull down my barns, and build greater and there will I bestow all my fruits and my goods.

I will say of Yahweh, He is my refuge and my fortress my God, in whom I trust.

If I say, I will forget my complaint, I will leave off my heaviness, and comfort myself

Shall I then take my bread, and my water, and my meat that I have killed for my shearers, and give it to men who I don't know where they come from?

Now I am stateless. I don t know how I will be able to visit my aged mother, my brothers, sisters and my friends.

My body grew numb and I lost my voice so I couldn t scream anymore.

I have come into my garden, my sister, my bride. I have gathered my myrrh with my spice I have eaten my honeycomb with my honey I have drunk my wine with my milk. Friends Eat, friends! Drink, yes, drink abundantly, beloved. Beloved

I am come into my garden, my sister, my spouse I have gathered my myrrh with my spice I have eaten my honeycomb with my honey I have drunk my wine with my milk eat, O friends drink, yea, drink abundantly, O beloved.

And at the evening sacrifice I arose up from my heaviness and having rent my garment and my mantle, I fell upon my knees, and spread out my hands unto the LORD my God.

I lost my father and had to support my mother and my young sisters, so I went looking for work elsewhere.

With this job all I needed were my hands and my massage table by my side and I could go anywhere.

At the evening offering I arose up from my humiliation, even with my garment and my robe torn and I fell on my knees, and spread out my hands to Yahweh my God

The LORD is my strength and my shield my heart trusted in him, and I am helped therefore my heart greatly rejoiceth and with my song will I praise him.

If I say, 'I will forget my complaint, I will put off my sad face, and cheer up '

Then I said, I shall die in my nest, and I shall multiply my days as the sand.

For my name's sake will I defer my anger, and for my praise will I refrain for you, that I not cut you off.

Yahweh is my strength and my shield. My heart has trusted in him, and I am helped. Therefore my heart greatly rejoices. With my song I will thank him.

And I remember the last time I came back from India in my long white flowing robes and my big beard and my John Lennon glasses and I said to my father, Dad, I think I've just about found spiritual enlightenment.

I am weary with my groaning all the night make I my bed to swim I water my couch with my tears.

When I heard this thing, I tore my garment and my robe, and plucked off the hair of my head and of my beard, and sat down confounded.

Then I said, I have laboured in vain, I have spent my strength for nought, and in vain yet surely my judgment is with the LORD, and my work with my God.

And when I heard this thing, I rent my garment and my mantle, and plucked off the hair of my head and of my beard, and sat down astonied.

I was injured all my life, and then in my early 40s I got rid of my shoes and my running ailments have gone away too.

I gave of my time and my money, I gave when solutions were on sale.

I am the good shepherd. I know my own, and I'm known by my own

And if the servant shall plainly say, I love my master, my wife, and my children I will not go out free

But ( I think ) for my part that He is Allah , My Lord , and none shall I associate with my Lord .

But ( I think ) for my part that He is Allah , My Lord , and none shall I associate with my Lord .

I will say of the LORD, He is my refuge and my fortress my God in him will I trust.

He said, 'This is what I will do. I will pull down my barns, and build bigger ones, and there I will store all my grain and my goods.

Then will I remember my covenant with Jacob, and also my covenant with Isaac, and also my covenant with Abraham will I remember and I will remember the land.

At first I was confused and scared, terrified, and I realized I had lost my protector, and my source of financial support.

Yah is my strength and song. He has become my salvation. This is my God, and I will praise him my father's God, and I will exalt him.

Thus shall my anger be accomplished, and I will cause my wrath toward them to rest, and I shall be comforted and they shall know that I, Yahweh, have spoken in my zeal, when I have accomplished my wrath on them.

So I I took my camera, I took my notebook, took a chair, and started to observe this behavior.

As I slowly lost my speech, I gained my voice.