The numbness is gone and the pain is back.

What I felt, in fact, was an infinite numbness. Let me share with you some of the ideals I on which I was brought up on in our household.

I remember when I started practicing Buddhism 14 years ago, and I was told that the end of this practice was to be happy, I said, How could you be happy and live in this world of suffering and live in this world of pain? I mistook happiness for a lot of other things, like numbness or decadence or selfishness.